Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Five Years of Firefox

Five Years of Firefox

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Happy Holidays? F.U.!

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I do not like this time of the year at all! I used to love it as a kid and even as a young adult but things started to happen ..bad things & I really started to look forward to February because the holidays just ripped my heart out. I lost my dad on Christmas morning I was laid off of two very good jobs during the holidays & my first marriage was officially d.o.a. during another holiday span. Now for me the holidays are from Thanksgiving until the week after New Years. Now there are some more bad things in there that I'm not going to bore you with but needless to say after the pounds from Thanksgiving settle on my sides I start to feel down REALLY down. I start to relieve every other bad holiday I've ever had and my kids are just about grown & I feel I could have been a much better father & I have just wasted another year etc.....I have been to the point when I have really considered "feeding the tree". So for those of you out there that hate this time of year despite some of my recent good luck I'm still with you. I have caught myself several times crying for no reason & just feeling a sense of dread. I have tried to shop to get my mind off of it & that didn't work. About the only thing that has worked is charitable giving & I plan to do a lot more this spring & have some organizations lined up that I will be donating my weekends to. So my friends please try to cheer up & know that you have a kindred spirit here in the Nations Capitol that really knows what you're going through & if you want you can even email me anacostia@ymail.com .. feel free I'm laid up with a bad back and would be glad to converse with you. Hey unless your a child molester or murderer the world would probably be better off with you in it but if you are a child molester or murderer then excuse what I have written & please off yourself pronto!
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Monday, December 7, 2009

Who knew??

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If you remember my previous post you know that I hate my job..well a funny thing happened.. I got a break from my job..yep I hurt my back at work & ive been home for about a month now. Well after seeing a neurosurgeon and getting diagnosed as having a herniated disc I got loaded up with pain killers & I ended up with a (maybe funny to you) side effect FEAR!! I like the rest of you always play the "whats the worst way to die" game and my number 1 fear is being buried alive. Well here's where your laugh comes in..the doctor said after looking at my c.t. scan "lets be triple sure and get you an mri" mri no big deal ive had a few in the past no big deal..well for those of you that have never had one its like being loaded into a torpedo tube and your the torpedo..the machine is all around you & your put on a table and slid into the machine completely. Half way into the machine i freaked out and begged to be let out..after I was let out I started to pace the floor and asked for water because I had total and complete cotton mouth..I was given water then told that I would be put in feet first & have my head stick out of the machine to help me well that didnt work either. At this point I had headphones on blasting jazz & all I could think about was being buried alive. I hit the bell & got out of the machine pronto! A few moments later I was out of my gown into my clothes & in my car crying like a school girl that had just gotten bullied. I lost it for about 15minutes I couldnt even drive ...it was awful. But hey they have open mri machines which I tried & nope couldnt do that either. At one point at the open mri appointment the nurse came out & held my hand and I still couldnt do it and right now this second thats where we stand. What im going to do is take a handful of pills & have someone drive me over there and pour me into the machine thats about the only way I see this getting done. Well theres your laugh for the day glad I could help..
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